The thoughts of a wandering soul.

February 17th, 2012.

We all fear the unknown, what might lie ahead for us. Out futures, carreers, love, etc. 

Today I learned that only you can decide what your future will be. If you let one thing overshadow it the only person you can blame is yourself. Don’t let anything stand in your way. Ever. 

Sitting in the lib, alone tonight I get a chance to relax and reflect. 

The University of New Hampshire is reviewing my app.. hopefully next week I will know.. I hope!

‘Tis all for now 

February 16th, 2012. 

It’s been a while I know, but things have been busy. Another week gone by, another week closer to spring break! 

Got in a fight with one of my closest friends this week, not quite sure why. 

Thats it for now. 

February 13th, 2012. 

Stats got cancelled, my only class of the day! I worked on some stuff at the library and then went and chilled with my friends. Its back to the lib with my other friend/sister to do some homework then back to the house for family. 

The grammy’s (well adele) was amazing last night! 

I keep checking my application status at unh even though i know nothing has been posted yet! ekk 

February 12th, 2012. 

Today was actually a really good day. I relaxed a but, watched a couple of bad lifetime movies with my friend, got diner with my other friend, and now waiting for the grammy’s to start. 

Last night at my house all hell broke loose. There was a guy who got his faced busted up, people puking and sleeping everywhere. Even though this house is crazy and dysfunctional It’s growing on me. 

Doing some quick studying for stats then hittin the sac somewhat early tonight. 

February 11th, 2012. 

I woke up this morning with a goal; get my work done today so I can relax the rest of the weekend. I’ve been working at this feverish pitch to make sure my grades are good and to keep myself occupied. 

I wandered down the hall from the shower earlier, and I saw another random dude leaving out the front door. I want to create a collage or some kind of photography project about it.  Each of them so unique yet eerily similar, I wonder if they are looking for a man they once had in each of these guys. 

Sitting here in the front atrium room, alone, looking out at the campus I see a large tour group. Each person in it is trying to be something they are not.. It’s amusing. 

Hopefully I’ll hear from UNH soon.. I just want to know. 

February 10th, 2012. 

It’s been a long time, hasn’t it? Last thing I updated you all was me going to Temple University. 

That all fell through halfway through the semester.. so I left. I went back to Keene State where I found everything to be different. The soccer boy doesn’t talk to me, my best friends have moved on, and I’m more alone then I have ever been before. 

The worst part is I don’t feel alone in the sense of being someone new.. Its the feeling of being in some place for a while then one day no one likes you or talks to you. I pass by people I used to talk to all the time and they just give me a passing glance. 

The friends I do still talk to and hang out with get tired of me constantly being around and because of that I spend most of the time in the library. 

I’m living off-campus (big mistake) this semester which probably adds to the feeling of isolation. My roommates are all 21, have known each other for years, and hate being around me. I’m gone most of the day they are gone at night.. it works out in the end I guess. I just hate it. 

I want to get out of here.. I’ve applied to transfer to UNH for the fall and hopefully they like me and accept me.. if not I’m stuck in this hell hole, but at least its not temple.